2015年12月4日

New Series : Road to Japan - Ep. 1



So after writing my long post about my current life options, I had to step back, read it again, think and then decide what I am going to do. No, I was not going to just drop a massive whining blog post and leave it at that.



Next spring I will turn 27 years old. I am terrified of celebrating yet another birthday, knowing I haven't actually done much to improve my life situation for the past 5 years. Alright, I did enroll back into University to finish off my major last winter, which I will finish december 17th, in a few weeks. I did also finally quit my soul sucking depressing restaurant job and now am working in a way better environment, which pays me better, and allows me to be clean and taking care of my physique more, which is a good thing to feel good on a daily basis.

But what next ? Am I going to keep this job for a few years, and then keep on trying to find another office job that would -maybe- be a little better ? Or even stay there ? What are the chances that my situation will be more satisfying here, after all ?

So I kept my gross routine of crying over vloggers in Japan and checking out apartments in the Kanto area (why do I do this to myself, uh ?) and after having a kind of meltdown/illumiation I went into a full life-changing rage, went to visit an orientation and information lady at school and decided I'd be going back to school in september. I was still on time to get classes this january, but I am not mentally ready nor monetary ready haha.

Problem is I really hate school. Especially since I know I am only taking these classes to probably end up being an english teacher. So it's not like I am pursuing classes that will bring me to my dream job. But it will get me home. I do this, because I WANT this.

And no, I do not know how it will work in Japan. I do not know if it will work out. But it needs to work out. So I'll do my absolute best.

I've started back my study of japanese. I need to start slow, so I bought some books for japanese 1st graders (literal japanese kids books) and I'm just starting again. Hopefully while I'm not at school this winter/spring/summer I can catch up on kanji and some grammar.



So with all this, the main goal, general goal, would be Japan Spring 2K18. With the hopes that I can do my minor in 1.5 year part time, and not actually die of poverty trying to survive by myself in an apartment while paying tuition and everything else with a part-time job, and saving a little to fly to Japan by winter 2K18. I hope. So much.

So it starts here. I will need so much energy, and so much support. But let's do this.

3 件のコメント:

  1. How about, this, you don't renew your rent in july, you just send back your stuff to your parents, and go for 6 month in Japan. You find a small job in Japan, like working in a French themed cafe or that plus size maid cafe. You learn Japanese, you fight back depression, and you come back in January, ready to take good decision about your live. You try to take decisions about your future when you are in a fog. You need a break from your life. If I were you, I'll just pile up money for the next 6 months and sort my life while in Japan.

    For a lot of my friends, I would tell them to go back to their parents, but yours are too toxic to help you. I'm sure 6 months in Japan will be a better therapy than anything else.

    Take care of yourself.

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    1. Hi anon

      Well, I can NEVER save up enough money in 6 months to go to Japan. I am ready to take decisions now and here. Going to Japan for 6 months will only delay my real changes and make me cry about coming back here after 6 useless months at a maid cafe (which is not quite legal btw on a working holiday visa, which you would know if you had done research as much as I did). I also know japanese already to a level I consider alright. My break from my life cannot cost me 6 months in japan because I cannot afford a 5-8K$ break.

      I am not ready to be in Japan now, and this is why I don't fly there this next year. I want to go and not come back.

      Unless you want to give me some free round trip plane ticket for me to stay in Jpn for 6 months, that won't do.

      The fog will not go away. I can walk through the fog, but not run. What you ask of me is running.
      Im taking a slow walk right now and hopefully I'll get there.

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  2. I'm sorry, my advices were not good in your situation, and I'm affraid I can't help you with a free ticket to Japan.

    Do you intent to finish your degree on the same subject or do a minor in something else like teaching or translating? I got a friend who live in Japan, but I was a software developer, so it was a very easy job to export, like he continued to work for his Canadian employer while he moved to Japan and he switched when I found another job in Japan. Being someone very tasteful, have you thought about geting a high school degree in computer graphic? It last only 18 month and might be more something you'll enjoy learning and doing than becoming a teacher. And it a easy job to export too.

    Hope the best to you

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