New Series : Road to Japan - Ep. 1
So after writing my long post about my current life options, I had to step back, read it again, think and then decide what I am going to do. No, I was not going to just drop a massive whining blog post and leave it at that.
Next spring I will turn 27 years old. I am terrified of celebrating yet another birthday, knowing I haven't actually done much to improve my life situation for the past 5 years. Alright, I did enroll back into University to finish off my major last winter, which I will finish december 17th, in a few weeks. I did also finally quit my soul sucking depressing restaurant job and now am working in a way better environment, which pays me better, and allows me to be clean and taking care of my physique more, which is a good thing to feel good on a daily basis.
But what next ? Am I going to keep this job for a few years, and then keep on trying to find another office job that would -maybe- be a little better ? Or even stay there ? What are the chances that my situation will be more satisfying here, after all ?
So I kept my gross routine of crying over vloggers in Japan and checking out apartments in the Kanto area (why do I do this to myself, uh ?) and after having a kind of meltdown/illumiation I went into a full life-changing rage, went to visit an orientation and information lady at school and decided I'd be going back to school in september. I was still on time to get classes this january, but I am not mentally ready nor monetary ready haha.
Problem is I really hate school. Especially since I know I am only taking these classes to probably end up being an english teacher. So it's not like I am pursuing classes that will bring me to my dream job. But it will get me home. I do this, because I WANT this.
And no, I do not know how it will work in Japan. I do not know if it will work out. But it needs to work out. So I'll do my absolute best.
I've started back my study of japanese. I need to start slow, so I bought some books for japanese 1st graders (literal japanese kids books) and I'm just starting again. Hopefully while I'm not at school this winter/spring/summer I can catch up on kanji and some grammar.
So with all this, the main goal, general goal, would be Japan Spring 2K18. With the hopes that I can do my minor in 1.5 year part time, and not actually die of poverty trying to survive by myself in an apartment while paying tuition and everything else with a part-time job, and saving a little to fly to Japan by winter 2K18. I hope. So much.
So it starts here. I will need so much energy, and so much support. But let's do this.